24 days left in Dallas.
I can’t wait to move to India. Well, I can—and have to, obviously. Don’t be silly. I’m just exaggerating to let you know how excited I am.
Today, I’m deciding to share some of my favorite pages from one of my favorite books that I have continued to read over and over since it was given to me two years ago for my birthday (thanks Janna). Each time I pore over the pages, I feel encouraged to keep moving forward–toward my goals, hopes and dreams; despite my past mistakes, my current circumstances and my future fears.
UNDAUNTED, by Christine Caine
I looked through this book today because I was feeling like I needed to be reminded of why I am deciding to move my life to the other side of world, to a place that I have never been, to work with and for people that I have never met.
I have a lot on my mind. Last month surprised me with an overwhelming amount of… difficulty. trouble. worry. anxiety. hiccups? I actually just searched “problem” in the Thesaurus (one of my favorite things – the Thesaurus, not problems) and I came up with that list of words. Last month was…hard.
I suppose when your life is changing in such a substantial way, you have to pack away not only the winter clothes that you won’t be needing in India, but also things that you have been carrying around with you emotionally/spiritually that will only weigh you down on the journey.
“Life will eventually turn every person upside down, inside out.”
It’s true. When bad things, or just “things” happen to us—we have the opportunity to ask ourselves what we are going to do about it. Will we allow the things that are hard, the things that hurt us, the people that betray us to make us bitter—or will we choose to become better?
We have a choice to allow our past, present and future hurts and disappointments to propel us into a deeper understanding of love and life, or we can decide to cower back, cross our arms and burry our pain to protect ourselves from the next blow.
“Just as life will upend you, so will love.”
I choose love. “I am going to love others like I never had before.”
“I had to resolve my own heartache if I expected to keep ministering to others in theirs.”
“Allow God to continually soften your heart so that it beats for what his heart beats for–people.”
“ If I speak with human eloquence and angelic ecstasy but don’t love, I’m nothing but the creaking of a rusty gate. If I speak God’s Word with power, revealing all his mysteries and making everything plain as day, and if I have faith that says to a mountain, “Jump,” and it jumps, but I don’t love, I’m nothing. If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but don’t love, I’ve gotten nowhere.
So, no matter what I say, what I believe and what I do, I’m bankrupt without love. ”
– 1 Corinthians 13:1-7 MSG
So, I have decided,
Love always (even when it’s not so easy),